At the beginning of every year, we plan a list of resolutions. We start with focusing on health, spending quality time with friends and family, making plans for better income, traveling to places that we dream of visiting, and catching up with the wish-list in our diaries.
This year, however, it’s different for me personally. For the last couple of years (read Covid times), a lot of the planning and looking forward to fulfilling desires is somehow not appealing to me. I’m in a go-with-the-flow mode for quite some time now. Every day, I have this list of chores that I aspire to complete, but lately the excitement to tick them off has been missing. Some days I feel like just going slow-paced, taking the time to actually enjoy my work, let it sink in, to actually feel what I’m focusing on, think about whether I am growing as a person, if I am making a difference through my interactions.
Normally, I would have worried about this new approach and style of work, that I’m losing the enthusiasm and love for my life. Now I think it's absolutely and utterly normal to not have a list just as much as it is for anyone to have one. I’m actually more aware of what I am doing – although it seems like I’m slowing down, the quality of my work is improving. I may be focusing on fewer things, but the satisfaction that I have at the end of the day is immense. I’m getting newer opportunities that I’ve been wanting to explore but never really had the time; suddenly, time has started moving slowly for me, as I am no longer racing against it, trying to fit in ten activities in a single day. I’m enjoying two activities instead, but gaining satisfaction in understanding how it is helping me grow. Yes, I do have a few chaotic days as well, when I’m all charged up and actually accomplish more than I set out for. But those days too are enjoyable and undoubtedly fruitful.
What I am feeling currently, is that everything has a time and place. Things are happening so synchronously and everything is progressing so smoothly, it actually feels effortless. Every day it’s just as though the whole world is helping me live and experience life in a very different way than was normal for me before.
I am, for the first time in my life, feeling like the main character of my life story. The sole focus is on not just existing, but actually living and rejoicing every moment. There’s so many things and concepts that have become crystal clear, not just through understanding but through practical experience. It’s a very beautiful feeling – the feeling that I’m evolving, not just existing or living. I no longer need some person or friends for me to enjoy activities, I have become enough.
I am my own company and friend. Initially, I did feel that I’m becoming self-centred, but as I befriended myself and realised the most important fact:- that I am the most constant thing or person in my life. If I do not understand myself, or my feelings, my emotions and desires, nobody else ever will. So I have been investing in myself lately, understanding my own being, my beliefs and my desires, and for the first time I’m actually loving myself for what I am. There are absolutely no expectations that I am to behave in a certain way or something that I need to do for someone else, it’s all happening so naturally and effortlessly because I’m aware that I am choosing my own actions and words to express myself in a way that is in complete sync with who I am. I feel I am finally fitting in with the universe, that am in complete unison with who I am meant to be. If this is what “going with the flow” feels like, I want every person I have ever interacted with to feel this experience. I have gained so much through this experience. And being the person I am, I want to share this experience and help people experience it too.
My motto has always been to make things better than when I first found them, to make life a little better for everyone whom I cross paths with. I have always believed that life is beautiful and we can always make it even better with our efforts.
The Upgrade Life project is very, very close to my heart. It’s my way of giving back, of making a difference to people. Please feel free to ask for help or any assistance in dealing with any issues or worries you may be facing, if need someone to confide in or just to get it off your chest.
You can DM on my Instagram account or email me at hello@upgradelife.in and I will surely revert. Warm regards to all the followers of this page.
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